Its shaytan that causes doubts in our hearts. He makes us second guess ourselves.
Look, something is always better than nothing. It will make people view you differently. It will make you be a wannabe in their eyes perhaps, or even worse. My bestest friend in the whole wide world went through the same thing these past couple of years and subhanAllah she rose from the pile of mud everyone stomped all over. It wasn’t that bad but yes, it was bad. She dealt with it though and she made her position clear Alhamdullilah in front of everyone. People questioned her all the time- “oh you don’t do that?” “Oh, since when do you do that?” and all of that junk and she’s like well “I got back to my senses and I’m taking things on step by step.” SubhanAllah she is a different person now. One by one she is adopting better practices and she is changing. It doesn’t happen overnight, nor can you expect it to. I mean, I’ve known her for … 8ish years? I love her so much more now fisabilillah and I’ve seen her grow and I have so much more respect for her.
There were friends she lost along the way. There were parties or gatherings she didn’t go to anymore (not like clubbing or whatnot mind you). There were people she no longer chose to hang out with. But Allah subhanwata’ala guarded her through this and she has never felt alienated or alone. She glows now.
You have to start. You have take the baby steps and let the weirdness just go away. Have tawakkul. Know that Alah subhan wa ta’ala will help you when you have set yourself out to obey Him. He wouldn’t abandon His slave. That is not why He created you.